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Sophie told me about something she was doing at that time, which might be considered guilt-worthy by some, but claimed she didn’t feel guilty about it, that she was over it.

I continued to get this phrase “hidden guilt” throughout the reading, and suggested she follow up in hypnotherapy to discover the “hidden guilt” that was keeping her from enjoying her life.

Finally, toward the end of the reading, I got the suggestion to recommend a book. My logical mind started to search around for my metaphysical and self-help library titles, then I heard, “Hidden Guilt” again.

So I Googled it.  The first entry in the search was it.  It’s a book.  The subtitle is “How to Stop Punishing Yourself and Enjoy the Happiness You Deserve.”  Here’s the link to it on Amazon, if you’re interested:  http://www.amazon.com/Hidden-Guilt-Lewis-Engel/dp/0671737139

Sophie said, “I say that!  I say, I feel like I am punishing myself and that’s why I don’t have what I want!”  She was off to get the book when we hung up.

Yes.  Every.  Time.

Miss T:
Hey, Susan! Finally made it to a Phenom? What’s up for me?

SKM:
Hi, Miss T!  Glad to have you!  I’m seeing you poring over something, like a game or a crossword puzzle, and you are nervous.  Like you’re waiting for news about something important.  This seems to be related to the health of a loved one.  All you need to do/will do is be there for this person and hold hands and spend time and share space. And remember that everything happens not for A reason, but for many reasons, and just as it is meant to. You might want to read my lecture on beginnings and endings to C*** further down this page.*  Best of luck!

*****

Later, Miss T sent me a private message:
I wanted to let you know that your reading for me on the Phenom was SPOT ON! When you first said it, I was confused, because no one in my family or any of my “loved ones” were ill. But it has all come to pass just as you said it would and you answered a question for me concerning my role in the future.

SKM:
Thank you. I really appreciate that great feedback.  I would like to know more about your situation. If I can help you any further, please say so.

Miss T:
Yeah, oddly enough, I knew you wouldn’t be surprised by it.  My situation–my mom is ill. Apparently she’s been ill for a while but we don’t have much of a relationship or at least haven’t had. She called me the Monday after the Phenom to tell me she was having health problems but I didn’t call her back. Kept trying to prepare myself–during which time I kept playing a game on my phone over and over to deal with the nerves. Just like you said and I didn’t realize it until after and then everything began to make sense. Wednesday her neighbor called to let me know she was in the hospital. I called her there and we had a good conversation about a lot of things. Then I got word today that they’re putting her in ICU today. I have to head to the hospital and see what’s going on. From talking to her neighbor this morning, it sounds like she’s extremely ill.

SKM:
Well, I am so sorry. And not being close might make it even worse. Just remember what I said–all you have to do is be there. That will be very, very important to both of you. I wish you and your family the best and I hope your mom at least isn’t in pain.

*****

SKM:
Hi, how’s your mom doing?

Miss T:
I think I might be facing an end-of-life decision tomorrow for mom. Her doctor wants to see me in person in the morning.

I’m at peace with the decision if I have to make it. Just have to work through all the feelings I have, wishing things were different. When I visited mom today, there was no life in her eyes so, even before they called, I was thinking her prognosis was grim.

SKM:
I understand. You are obviously very wise. I wish you the best tomorrow, and I’ll be thinking of you.

*****

Miss T:

And in the end, it was just like you said it would be. I shared space, spent time and held her hand.

SKM:
God bless you both. I am honored to have had any participation and I hope it was helpful or meaningful to you.

Miss T:
It was helpful and comforting.

*****

*[Lecture on beginnings and endings to a different client:

Here's what's up for you: you are coming to the end of an era. That sounds scary to you until you realize that it is also a beginning, and you cannot have one without the other. So look for the beginning that is arriving at the same time, and relish the new freedoms it offers you. This may pertain to a relationship (which is my feeling) or your job or even graduation from school? But ultimately, while the ending can be painful and/or distressing, move forward into the beginning with confidence. This is part of what you came into this life for!]